Sad news...

So, today brought some disheartening news for us. I got the call at 9:30 that only 7 of our 25 eggs fertilized last night. This is not good odds at all, especially considering that 21 of the 25 eggs were mature and ready to be fertilized. :( I know what you're thinking.. "Seven?!?! That's great! It only takes one!" Let me explain the reasons why seven is not a good number.

First off... From here until day 5 (Sunday) when they are transferred back into me, it is common to lose half of the fertilized eggs. This would put us down to possibly three. Which is still the two we need, we understand that. However, you can freeze left over eggs so that if it doesn't take this time around you can pick up from this point and try again. It is about a third the cost, a third the time, and involves no shots or painful retrievals. We were REALLY hoping that we could freeze enough of them to reduce our stress level of feeling like this "has" to work this time around. Now, that safety net has been pulled out from under us, and it adds a lot of pressure to a situation that is already filled with stress. We didn't want that.

They don't know why only seven of them worked, and were as saddened as we were about this news. We were hoping for 15, which would have still been a low number considering where we came from. As Kev put it, we felt "deflated." It has been a day of testing our positivity and faith in things working out. Every hour that passes I wonder how many more have died off. I am terrified for the next four days and I hope they FLY by. I just need to know we have enough to do this on Sunday! 

We would greatly appreciate extra prayers for those seven little eggs, that they are the best of the best and they will all (or even four) make it until Sunday! We can't afford to keep losing them! We are trying to keep our heads up and stay positive, but this has been a tough and scary bump in our road.