Warning....

For any of you that read this I wanted to warn you... Our blog is going to take a drastic change for the next two months. If you have no interest in reading day after day about my experience with In-Vitro Fertilization, then I suggest not checking in for a few months.

After talking with Kev, I decided that this would be my safe place of refuge from this whole thing. A place, not only to dump my thoughts, worries, concerns, but a place to track my journey and to be able to look back and remember what we have been through together. So, it begins...

Day 1 of IVF comes with an overwhelming sense of excitement but an equal amount of fear. To be terrified doesn't even do it justice. How will my body react to all of these drugs and injections? How will I handle stabbing myself in the stomach twice a day? How will our bank account bounce back? What will we do if it doesn't work (something we have not even been able to talk about yet). What if it does work and then we miscarry again? What if it works and I go on bed rest (I think I would off myself). How will we deal with the stress of going through this, and then the stress of worrying if it actually works? Should I be excited, or is too soon to feel that way??? Hopeful- 70% is good odds, however, I have always prided myself with being in the top (and smaller) percentage of things... Is this my 30%? These are just a few of my thoughts tonight as I swallow my first birth control pill in three years. "Birth control?" you say. Oh yes... Very tricky business this IVF world.

Turns out that the doctor is very concerned about me getting OHSS (scary stuff, Google it) which basically means they set my ovaries into overdrive that causes them to freak out and start leaking, which causes large amounts of fluid to collect in my tummy and can create thickened blood (also very not good) ANYWHO, in order to help avoid that they put my lovely little ovaries "to sleep" for two weeks before we get started. This is so that they will turn themselves off until I start injecting them with hormones. Helps the doctors to have more control, and therefore, less chances of OHSS (cross your fingers). I have a wonderful doctor, who is going to keep a VERY close eye on me, so I am resting my worries about this in his hands. Plus, he told us himself that making babies is his superpower, and we have been waiting for two and a half years to find someone with that superpower, so I think I'll let him be in charge!! ;)

Isn't science amazing?

So, jump on the train!!!! Next stop, injections training!!! Woot woot!!!

O'Neil Happenings

What a crazy life! Whew! Lately it has just been non-stop around these parts, but it is almost time for a break (17 more days to be exact)!

We have just been loving life with our girls (and the sunshine), celebrating holidays with our families, running, doing homework, yard work, planning trips and trying to catch up on our DVR. Here are some most recent life happenings in photos...

Nala Jaye turned four years old! She is the sweetest little pup ever. She also just gave us a mighty big scare with the threat of bone cancer, but all is well, and she is cancer free!

Rahja Maye celebrated her sixth birthday! I simply cannot believe that this little love is six years old... Kevin and my first baby who we have learned so very much from.

 

Isn't this cute?!?!

Made by my second graders for Earth Day. Around it they made promises to the Earth of how they will help to keep it a clean and healthy place. They are just too darn precious. Seriously. I am going to really miss this group of kiddos!

 Hopefully, next year will bring me a job, with a room full of kids just as great as these ones! We are at the waiting it out point right now, so maybe we will know something soon...

Also... This is what the first day of IVF looks like... Who wants to join?

YEP... That is 3,100 dollars worth of drugs sitting on my dinning room table. OUCH. 

Here's to a smooth trip down this road!!!! :)



 (I'll keep you updated)